Ronan's VCUG

Today was Ronans ultrasound and VCUG (x ray with contrast dye to check on his kidney reflux) If there was no improvement, he would need surgery to correct it. The odds were about 50/50.
The kid did SO well, it helped that they gave him a sedative for the procedure.
The hospital gave him this adorable stuffed bear, and stickers, popsicles when we were finished and this sticker on a stick lol. He LOVED that thing and waved it everywhere. He was soooo loopy we got some fantastic video lol.

BUT most importantly his reflux went froma grade 3/4 to a grade 2, which means NO SURGERY!!! YAY!!!!

Praise the Lord. Here are some pictures from is adventures today :)

Almost 15 weeks!

Babies are doing great!!!!! I cannot wait to find out the gender so I can start planning the new babies' room!!!! It is going to be a lot of rearraging but, SO FUN!!!! I am so nervous to find out who is in there!!! Last time we KNEW what we wanted to name our baby, we just waited to find out the gender to know which one it would be. This time, I have NO clue... I am just waiting for March 1st!!!!!

Ronan is hearing a lot about babies lately, but I still dont think he "gets it" He LOVES listening to the babies' heart beats before going to bed. And talks about them when he is in the car. ( We have a car seat set up to test out if all three car seats would fit in the back of our Hyundai Tucsan... which they do thankfully).
It is going to be so fun watching him become a big brother. I am nervous too, ofcourse, but trying to focus on the positive things.

Here is a pic from last night, I had a really fun girls night and actually made an effort with some make up, so I figured it should be documented.


Because I am still having horrible head aches, and sciatic pain, I still find myself in jammies and mostly out of commission.
As far as the bleeding, I guess I just have to get used to it? It mostly happens at night when I get up to use the restroom. Very annoying, but thankfully that is all it is.... annoying.
If I didn't have my fetal doppler I might loose my mind.

On a separate note.... Brian and my 7th anniversary is coming up. Brian told me that he is taking me away for a "babymoon"!!!!!!!! EXCEPT, I won't know WHEN and I wont know WHERE!!! hehe So mysterious :) I am so excited!! My MIL will be watching Ronan at our house, so I won't need to worry about him being taken care of. I seriously cannot WAIT!!!!!!

March 1st 2012- VOTE

The date is SET!!! We will find out the gender of our miracle twins March 1st 2012!!! Until then I made a poll so you all can VOTE!!!!
I AM BEYOND EXCITED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

<-------- You can find the Poll on the left side of the blog. Just make sure you vote before March 1st at 10:00 AM, when the poll will END!

I am still spotting, but it's all old blood still, and the heart beats are staying steady and strong at 168 BPM each.

Hope everyone is having a fabulous week!!!

13 weeks

My appointment today was so great!!! My doctor did an ultrasound to check on the babies and they both looked perfect. We didn't see any signs of the bleed, and my doctor said the placentas looked great!!!! I was SOOOO HAPPY!!!!!

I asked all the questions that I needed to ask, and afterwards felt a MILLION times better. He told me that I am "out of the woods"... YAY!!! He also said it may take awhile for the yucky old brown bleeding to clear out.

All in all, it was just great! In other news, Brian got another promotion at work!!!! I am so proud of my hubby :) I feel very very blessed right now <3

My Mother in law is here while I get back on my feet, and this week I think I may begin tackling potty training. I dont know :) we'll see!!!!

Ultrasound UPDATE

Clot was smaller, and there were no signs of any other bleeding. SO apparently it is just the clot working it's way out. I may have more bleeding, or I may not. It is what it is. It is having no effect on the babies growth, doctor doesn't think it will lead to a miscarriage. I just need to take it easy.
The pictures weren't any thing special because the measurements were so fast. He didn't want to irritate my cervix.

Thank you Lord for protecting my children. For loving them more than I ever could. I ask that you deliver them safely to my arms, healthy, thriving, and ready to meet their big brother!!!!!

Can I please catch a break?

I had about 3 days of freedom... It was short lived. Late last night, around 11 pm I started to bleed again. It was old blood at first, so I thought maybe it was just the old blood coming out. That hope was crushed when it was followed by new red active blood. There wasn't nearly as much new blood as their was the old- but still horrifying. I have probably checked on the babies like 6 times today. Every time their heart rates have been up in the 170's.
So far the bleeding has stopped to the occasional light light spotting.

I am back on bed rest, and back in a dark lonely room where my thoughts begin to go sour. I worry, worry, and worry some more. I cry, and agonize over everything. I miss playing with my son, cooking, cleaning, spending time with Brian. I feel like I am confined, and any false move will stir up the bleeding again. I am on egg shells.

No one really seems to understand how I feel right now which makes it even more lonely.
I truly wish that God could take a human form with me and just hold me for a bit. It aches me that when I am in distress I need Him more. I feel like such a bad daughter. I do need Him though. So so desperately. This pregnancy is proving to be a very very difficult trial and I just cannot wait for these precious ones to reach viability.

Hopefully I can get in for an ultrasound tomorrow for some peace of mind. I know there isn't anything they can do other than reassure me. And honestly, odds are, it will be fine, just a big fat repeat of what happened before. Which is exactly what it looks like.
The weird part? It happened LAST month on the 8th... exactly... I am not looking forward to February the 8th.

Please keep my sanity, but most importantly my babies in your prayers.

11 weeks/ graduation day!

Both babies looked great! I am officially graduated onto my OB/GYN only :) Kinda bitter sweet. The blood clot was still there but so smushed it had no place to go and was impossible to measure. Doctor thinks it will either be gone by the next scan, or will just stay in there harmlessly and come out with the delivery.

A was very active today. We saw his/her face so clearly and lots of arms and legs flying all over :)

B was our sleeping beauty lol. I am convinced B is a girl. I could be completely wrong, but I am just sayin'...

It was a great check up.

Tomorrow is Ronan's 2 year old well baby check up.

Thursday is my OB appointment. It will be my first one since I missed the 8 week appt, due to bed rest.

A busy week, but a good week. And NOW I feel like a NEW WOMAN!!! I am NO LONGER on pelvic rest or bed rest!!! I am just FREEEEEEE!!! I am so so so happy :)

God is so good and I do NOT deserve His blessings, but I happily except them.

One thing I really need to work on is gaining weight. My doctor told me that I really needed to work on gaining 20 pounds by 20 weeks :O YIKES... that seems crazy to me. I understand though, I DO want those babies to be as big and as healthy as possibly. It's just going to be hard with this nausea.

I will add new pics as soon as possibly. I need to post another belly pic too. It seems I have definitely popped. I FEEL HUGE.

Ronan still has no clue lol. Although when he watched the ultrasound video today to pointed to them and said "babies"

I wonder what it will be like for him. I admit that I am nervous. I don't ever want him to feel unloved or too jealous. I truly hope that he falls in love with his siblings and his heart expands as I know mine will.

Anyway, that is all for now. I hope everyone is having a fantastic New Year!!! My sister in law and I are going to read through the Bible chronologically together, I am looking forward to it :)