Decisions... Decisions...

So, as I have mentioned before, I am a varsity volleyball coach at a private Christian school. I have be absolutely LOVING IT!!! The kids are so fantastic, the parents are supportive, and well, I am just having so much fun :) Well, that got me thinking about my transfer. I thought to myself, if I transfer this October, and if everything worked out, I would be due in July. That means... There is no chance I could coach for the school next year. Could I seriously handle watching someone else lead these girls who I have come to love? Could I watch them sabatage the team I built ( okay, I know, it's extreme lol) I thought to myself... I HAVE to postpone. I have to postpone my transfer to March so I can coach still. I will be in my third trimester, sure, but I could d it!!! I thought about it and thought about it.... Then I figured out something... I LOVE coaching... But I LOVE being a mom even more. I just cannot express it. I love being a mom SO much that it hurts to put my scheduled transfer aside. I love being a mom SO much that I just couldn't imagine gong back for these babies as soon as possible. Looking at my kids right now, every sacrifice is worth it. Every one! And all I can think about is, I want more! They are all so sweet, and fun, challenging, silly and amazing..... I can't imagine anything being more important. I love coaching. I love these girls... But I love my kids even more. I have fun with them. Who knows maybe I can volunteer, help train the next coach? I don't know. but then again, maybe the transfer won't be successful. Maybe we will loose that baby, and I will have the opportunity to coach agai... But will just be a consolation prize. Nothing would be as great as the prize... The blessing of being a mom again. God, you know my heart, and all my desires. I trust it all to you... Only time will tell. But I did learn something about myself today. Nothing in my life compares to being a mom. Not even the most enjoyable occupation. The only things I love more are GOD and my husband. I hope that this transfer is successful. I cannot wait to meet you little one. You will be loved no matter what! Be it by ME or, your Heavenly Father :) .... Hopefully both, here on earth, with me! Very soon!!!!!