UNCOMFORTABLE

Is how I feel after 90 days of NO PERIOD!!! I was surprised I even started my period while nursing, but I did, and they were actually fairly regular for about 4 cycles. Even though I wasn't TTC(trying to conceive) and still am not TTC, it was NICE having an idea of where I was in my cycle and knowing that I could POSSIBLY have a chance of TTC on our own a couple months before we went back to the RE. But AF has been gone for over 90 days now and it's not JUST that I want AF to return to have a little normalcy, but it's strangely uncomfortable. It's weird. It feels kinda like I am always PMSy down there. My lower back aches a little and it feels generally uncomfortable. The solution seems easy. Call my DR. and get some progesterone prescribed so that it will bring on AF... The problem with that is, I actually already had some progesterone pills from a previous cycle that I ended up not using. I started taking them 3 days ago, but the minute I did, they just about dried up my milk supply! I know this because I skipped the pill last night and sure enough my milk came back in. Ugghhh, so I guess that means another 3 months or so of no period and this strange ache until Ronan is weaned and by that time we will be going back to the RE anyway. OH WELL. It's not that big a deal, just uncomfortable :(

Fall is in full swing here in Oregon. It is just beautiful outside. This is by far my favorite season. Pumpkin patches, haunted houses (lol) yummy hot drinks, fires in the fireplace, trees changing colors.... Ahhh I love it all :)

Ronan can stand on his own for like 5 seconds!!! And he had a blast meeting his new little cousin. Okay, he mostly just stared at him, wondering why he was making those shrill little sounds hahha. He was sooo tiny!! 3 weeks old and still under what Ronan weighed at birth haha. It was a lot of fun seeing my sister and snuggling my nephew. I thought I would for sure get baby fever the minute I held him. While I DID love snuggling him...baby fever did NOT set in. I am enjoying this stage with Ronan far too much :) I have a feeling, come January we it will. I know that is when Brian really wants to go back. HECK he would go now if it didn't matter that Ronan was still nursing.
I love him for it though. He is the world's best father and best husband. I really feel blessed to have him.

Thank you God, thank you so much for bringing such beauty into my life. Thank you for the people who surround me. I do not deserve any of it. You are so gracious...