Almost 10 weeks!

Had our last ultrasound with the RE and officially graduated to my regular OB!

We saw our sweet miracle, kicking and and wiggling all over. It was such a beautiful, and amazing sight.

I am so thankful and grateful for this miracle!!!!!

What a beautiful sound....

Almost 9 weeks, and for the last 2 days, I have been able to pick up this little miracle's heart beat on my doppler at home <3
It's the most wonderful sound. A huge beaming smile covers my face when it pops up... What a glorious, redeeming miracle.

Thank you God.

I remember when I found out I was pregnant this time around... I was mad. I didn't want to go through another loss. I had it in my mind that my body was incapable of producing a healthy natural pregnancy. Only through medication.
I gave up on my body. God didn't. He gave me a miracle, and I am completely in awe of the beauty of it all.

I can't wait to find out who this kid is!!!!

Hello little miracle!

Measuring 2 days ahead, with a perfect steady heart rate of 136 bpm, here is our surprise miracle!!!!
7 weeks 1 day.

I cried when I saw that heart beating. Just completely broke down. After the doctor congratulated us and left, Brian and I instantly clung to eachother sobbing. We were overjoyed...

This pregnancy feels strong. I have had intense morning sickness, exhaustion, major mood swings, and even early signs of lactation, craaaazy.

So, praise the Heavenly Father!!!!! Thank you JESUS for over coming. You are the true healer, You have given me much joy. What a gift.
And as a good friend, and fellow PCOSer so elloquently put it, "screw PCOS" ;) my God is bigger than this disease!

Praying for continued development, and health for this little one.

I'm just overt he moon right now!!!!!

Not sure how it happened... But I will take it!!!

So, I here I am waiting and waiting for my post miscarriage period to come... We decided that we wanted to revisit IUI with injectibles. We followed my blood HCG levels down to zero almost 5 weeks ago... It should be here by now.

I tuck my little boys into bed, which means I lay down with them in there little beds. As I go so sit up, my round ligaments are screaming at me. Ouch!!! What was THAT? A random thought crosses my mind, reminding me that I feel this way whenever I O, or even more so, when I am pregnant...

I grab an LH test. Maybe it's a super late O? I dip the stick, watch the dye cross. My test line is instantly dark. Much darker than the control line. It doesn't seem normal...

I ask Brian to bring a pregnancy test home on his way back from work. I honestly didn't think much about it. Yet, at the same time, I just knew....

I had already used most of my pee on the LH test, but I got a little out for the pregnancy test.

I couldn't believe how fast it popped up...

The next morning I explained to my very confused RE's office why I wanted an HCG blood draw.

At that time, I am guessing I was 16 dpo. Or 4 weeks 2 days.
The results? 690!!!

I went in again today 18 dpo, or there abouts. 4 weeks 4 days.
1281!!!

I am just stunned!

My progesterone was 47 too. I still have my suppositories too.

Things like this don't happen to me. They just don't!

I am trying not to question it too much. Trying to just embrace this odd peace that I feel about this baby.

God,
These curve balls you keep throwing me are nuts! I trust you Lord. I always do... I hope and pray this little one makes it to our arms.
Please protect this child. Help him or her grow perfect. Knit this baby together in my womb, just the way you intend. I so desperately do not want to loose another baby, Lord. Please God. Allow this to be an easy pregnancy with a happy ending...
In your name
amen.

The end of my miracle...

I started to bleed last night. I have been feeling "off" the last few days....

I had an ultrasound this morning.

Ultrasound showed that the pregnancy is still there but not nearly as far along as it should be, I am unfortunately very certain of my dates. I know what it should look like by now. All we saw was a 3 mm sac. There was some gray ish matter inside. No clear yolk sac or fetal pole.
We drew blood to look at HCG. I am feeling very confident that I am miscarrying.
I am absolutely heart broken. I was so excited for this miracle. However, I also recognize how blessed I am already. Praying that God will comfort us through this time and bring us another baby in His time.

Second beta

Praise GOD!!!!!!!
My second beta MORE than doubled!!!! How is this happening? I feel so incredibly overwhelmed. Happy, blessed, scared, confused lol. I just feel like I have skipped so many steps! It's just so amazing that this happened completely naturally, absolutely amazing.

My 6 1/2 week ultrasound has been scheduled for June 15th, where we will look for a heart beat :)

The next big step for this little miracle to over come :)

God,
I can NOT thank you enough for allowing us this blessing. We are so pleasantly supplied and feeling so grateful. We never deserve these good things, but you give them to us. You love us and know our desires.
I will trust this life to You God...and you know how hard that is for me :)
But you are the maker of this life, and every other. You hold it in your hands and love him or her more than me.
Praise you lord. Thank you for reminding me of your generosity and surprising me with this new life.

I love you,
In your name, Amen

12 dpo