IUI #2

Cycle day 12, and we had our IUI today :)

we BD'ed every other day last week and we still had 56 million perfect swimmers AFTER the wash!

I am now resting for the rest of the day! We had a wonderful weekend at our church. We attended a marriage conference called, "The Art Of Marriage" It was seriously great!!! I loved the topics covered and how interactive it was. We would have projects where we worked together as a couple to complete, and they were so productive. Brian and I felt so reconnected after :)
I love our marriage. I love how healthy it is. I am forever grateful He designed Brian for me.
The best part?? Ronan was away with Grandma and Grandpa- first time ever! I ofcourse missed him, but after the conference Friday night we stay out as late as we wanted, we came home and didn't have to whisper or tiptoe around the house, we could be as loud as we wanted. We played music, laughed, played games with my Brother in law and his wife, who were also attending the conference... We felt like teenagers again. It was just magical. I loved every minute with my man.

One of the projects was writing eachother love notes. They guided us and told us certain areas to address in the letter, and one of the areas was to tell Brian a way that he demonstrated his love in the past and his leadership as a husband.
I realized as I was writing it how many examples I could come up with, but the one that stood out most was when I found out I had PCOS. I found out it was ME that was preventing that long awaited child we both ached for. Just me.
At that time I was so close to believing the lie that I was less than a woman, that other women were better than me and I had nothing to offer anymore. SO CLOSE. My self esteem was as thin as ice. Brian delicately handled me. He treated me so tenderly, he never ONCE threw it in my face, or even joked about anything that could bring me shame. He COULD have broken me if he wanted. completely shattered me. He had that power. I am convinced that any other man would have. We had some hard moments during that time where I know I was not the most fun to live with. Brian was always gentle and loving- He saved me and protected my fragile self esteem. He built me up, strengthened me. He is my hero, my gift from God.

It really was a fantastic conference. SO glad we had the chance to go. Now it's time to pray that my body is cookin' up a baby!!

Lord, I know I don't deserve anything. You are gracious enough to bless me the way you have. I love you Lord, you are so good. You say that we can ask you Lord for anything. I pray with all my heart that it is in accordance to Your will that we conceive a miracle today. I trust that Your timing is the best. I may not understand it, but I trust it. I ask Lord that you allow us this miracle. Allow us to expand our family. Our hearts ache for more children Lord. It is the most beautiful gift. We thank you for Ronan. Every day.
I ask these things in Your name,
Amen