3 years ago today...

My dreams came true. I found out I was pregnant with Adriel. My husband and I cried, hugged, called anyone and everyone telling them our news. We praised God, we celebrated in every way possible!! I will always remember this day with bitter happiness, but mostly happiness. It was a good day. Yes it ended hard, and I will always ALWAYS ache for my first miracle, but I know that my sweet love is in Heaven, a better home than I could ever provide, and someday I will get to love and cuddle him for all eternity :)

Should have known

Well, the vitamin C did start something, but I think it was just break through bleeding. Oh well. It was pretty much just spotting for a few days. However the pain in my ovaries and lower back is mostly gone, so that is a good thing!

I have been spending most of my free time these days directing a musical for my church. It is a Christmas program designed for children ages k-8th grade. I was expecting about 10 kids at our first rehearsal yesterday... I had 45!!!! WOW. It was great! I was a little overwhelmed, but am really excited now. I have a lot of planning to do, and Brian is just the best ever.
He did all the power point, helped lead some songs with the kids, set up tables and chairs, met and talked with parents, all while holding Ronan while he slept on his shoulder and a smile on his handsome face!!!!! I married SUPER MAN!!!!!

I am also getting prepared for Ronan's 1st birthday (yikes) and planning my friends 21st birthday party- it's going to be one of the murder mystery parties where someone dies, and someone at the party is the murderer. You get to dress up and be someone your not- I love it ;)
I am going to be a saloon girl! woo woo! hehe

OK, well Ronan just woke up from his 2 1/2 hour nap! I think his top teeth are coming in :( poor little guy. At least he got an awesome power nap in!!!

VITAMIN C TO THE RESCUE!!

Thanks Christina!!! I was a little unsure about doing this because I read that it makes the uterus hostile and acidic, and I was unsure if all it was going to do was induce break through bleeding. I decided to take just one pill, a regular dose, and if it helped, great, and if not then no harm done. That was this afternoon. It is now a little after 10 pm. Hubby and I had just back from a date night and sure enough AF arrived! WOW wasn't expecting that! Amazing haha.

Anyway, that is my update! Thanks again for the great tip, Christina!

UNCOMFORTABLE

Is how I feel after 90 days of NO PERIOD!!! I was surprised I even started my period while nursing, but I did, and they were actually fairly regular for about 4 cycles. Even though I wasn't TTC(trying to conceive) and still am not TTC, it was NICE having an idea of where I was in my cycle and knowing that I could POSSIBLY have a chance of TTC on our own a couple months before we went back to the RE. But AF has been gone for over 90 days now and it's not JUST that I want AF to return to have a little normalcy, but it's strangely uncomfortable. It's weird. It feels kinda like I am always PMSy down there. My lower back aches a little and it feels generally uncomfortable. The solution seems easy. Call my DR. and get some progesterone prescribed so that it will bring on AF... The problem with that is, I actually already had some progesterone pills from a previous cycle that I ended up not using. I started taking them 3 days ago, but the minute I did, they just about dried up my milk supply! I know this because I skipped the pill last night and sure enough my milk came back in. Ugghhh, so I guess that means another 3 months or so of no period and this strange ache until Ronan is weaned and by that time we will be going back to the RE anyway. OH WELL. It's not that big a deal, just uncomfortable :(

Fall is in full swing here in Oregon. It is just beautiful outside. This is by far my favorite season. Pumpkin patches, haunted houses (lol) yummy hot drinks, fires in the fireplace, trees changing colors.... Ahhh I love it all :)

Ronan can stand on his own for like 5 seconds!!! And he had a blast meeting his new little cousin. Okay, he mostly just stared at him, wondering why he was making those shrill little sounds hahha. He was sooo tiny!! 3 weeks old and still under what Ronan weighed at birth haha. It was a lot of fun seeing my sister and snuggling my nephew. I thought I would for sure get baby fever the minute I held him. While I DID love snuggling him...baby fever did NOT set in. I am enjoying this stage with Ronan far too much :) I have a feeling, come January we it will. I know that is when Brian really wants to go back. HECK he would go now if it didn't matter that Ronan was still nursing.
I love him for it though. He is the world's best father and best husband. I really feel blessed to have him.

Thank you God, thank you so much for bringing such beauty into my life. Thank you for the people who surround me. I do not deserve any of it. You are so gracious...

mommy workout

No more excuses mommies! Here is a great way to work those abs and play with your baby at the same time lol ;)

SLOW DOWN!!!!!

Can he just slow down please???? He is suddenly standing every opportunity he can, even taking small steps. He has mastered the stairs, he is just conquering so many milestones lately I can hardly keep up!!!
In other news, Brian, myself and a bunch of our siblings, friends and co-workers went to a family fun center and had a blast! I am so sore from the rock climbing wall and the ropes course. I think just doing things in general that my body is not used to doing lol. It was so much fun though. It makes me what to be even that much more active. We are trying to get a group together to go rock climbing again.
The fall weather lately has been so beautiful. This is definitely my favorite season by far. i can't believe it was last year that I was taking daily walks, rubbing my big tummy, just waiting to meet this little guy.
Is it wrong that I am already excited for Christmas?? lol. OH and his first birthday party too!!! I cannot wait :) so many good things to come. Life is good.

Ronan crawling

Some footage of Ronan crawling!!!!! He is now pulling himself up regularly and being an all around dare devil lol.

He is also REALLY into books lately, i will have to put the video of a book up later ;)

Life has been pretty busy and chaotic as I am now the director of a children't musical production for my church. With the help of many others, I am going to be putting on a Christmas musical!!! I am really excited. I have directed once before, but this time its going to be much much bigger!!!!

OH, DUH and my Sister had her baby!!!! He came one week early, and we found out that its a BOY!!!! Gideon Alder is his name :)
The two cousins will only be 8 1/2 months apart!!! SO my day dreams and silly thoughts came true, Ronan and Gideon at the camp outs when we are older, getting into trouble. Meeting cute girls hehe... oh boy... He is just the sweetest little guy too!!!

Okay well I gotta get back to making my dinner. Enjoy the video of my boy!! I have a feeling he is going to be walking soon...