weight loss

uggghhh, i'm begining to feel very frustrated. I'm deffinatly used to being on the thin side, and I knew that after having a baby I would have baby fat that I would need to loose, I just thought it would come off faster... I mean I had a pretty normal 35- 40 lb weight gain, and immediatly after having him I lost 15 lbs, Then lost an additional 10 lbs pretty closely after that, now I have lost about 5 more, but seem to be stuck there and I still have 10 + lbs to loose! It's all in my tummy area, and I'm sure some of that weight is due to my boobs being like 10 times bigger than before and constantly producing milk, but I can't help but feel like a fatty next to my friends, uuugghhh!!!
I'm finally getting back into a workout routine, but it's so hard with Ronan, or even finding the energy some days. My goal is to be bak to pre baby weight by the end of May, because that is when we fly out to Texas for my Brother in Law's wedding... so we'll see how I do.

Okay, vent over!!

2 month photo shoot

YAY project accomplished! pictures done... by no means professional, but for a 10 minute click session with my point and shoot, i don't think they are half bad!

in other news, we had a great day today! it was so sunny and beautiful we visited my friend who also has a little one and went for a walk. My little sweetie Hazel (my dog) did sooo well with her baby too! I am so proud of her!

Anyways, he is asleep now so i'm headed off to bed also, goodnight!

I'm going to be an Auntie!

My sister just called to tell me that she is pregnant! the stinker kept it a secret! She is almost 12 weeks pregnant! I am so so happy for her. It was like their first cycle off b/c and she is 32. Such a complete difference... I was 22 when we started actively trying. I went OFF b/c at 21!! And as most of you know didn't get my miracle until 24! If I weren't holding my sweet Ronan in my arms I think my hubby would've had to put me in the looney bin!! But all things serious, it would've trully broken my heart.. not that I wouldn't be happy for her, or thankful she didn't have to go through the crud i've been through, it would've just killed me to see my sister go through the one thing my heart desired so desperately with such ease, as i sat there waiting and waiting with one baby already in heaven... most of you who've experienced this struggle will know what i mean...
THANKFULLY God knows our limits and i sit here completely fulfillrd and happy for my wonderful sister! thank you Lord for your compassion!!!
our kids will only be 9 months apart!

in other news, i really need to take some cute 2 month pics of Ronan, so that will be my project and goal tomorrow.
i have been really good about getting out and exercising everyday! i just wear Ronan in the baby bjorn and it gives my work out a little extra challenge! hopefully the lbs will shed a littlr quicker now,
My brother in law is getting married at the end of may and i'm singing at the wedding, so i hope to be back to pre pregnancy weight.

Ronan isn't sleeping quite as angelically anymore. He hates the swaddling now and is strong enough yo break free, and in doing so wakes up in the process. it's midnight now and i think im going to leave him un swaddled and see how it goes...

well he's asleep so i should turn in also... goodnight!

2 month check up/ hip ultrasound

sorry I haven't updated in awhile... so busy, lack of sleep, obsession with my awesome baby :) whom by the way is babbling like crazy, smiling, laughing a little, imitating my facial expressions (that's fun) and he is reaching for things!! I just love watching him grow and learn, he is so smart!

Yesterday was his 2 month check up and the day before that he had a hip ultrasound to make sure he didn't have hip displaysia (since i had it, and it's hereditary) The ultrasound was fine, Ronan was a champ and didn't cry once, although he did pee on the tech hahaha. Way to go son! you show em!! It was strange though because we were in the same room as before when he had his kidney u/s during our dreaded 10 day stay. Didn't exactly bring back happy memories... Thank God he is okay and he are no longer residing there! haha

His appt also went well. He is up to 12 lbs 6 oz. and he is almost 24 inches tall!!! Cannot believe that in 9 weeks he has already gained over 4 lbs, and over 3 inches! amazing...
The worst part of the appt was his shots :( 3 of them! and one given orally. He didn't cry at the first one, but by the second and third he was screaming. It's so hard, every time and it never gets easier!!
The next thing we need to do is schedule a visit with the uralagist (sp?) it will be nice to get some more information regarding Ronan's condition.
Well anyway, time to go, baby is awake ready to play!!!

good grief...

I don't think it's possible to love a child anymore. My heart just melts everytime i see him, how is it possible to love someone so much???? UGH i could gush about him all day! Here are some things he has been doing lately,
Every morning when my little pumpkin wakes up he stetches and smiles so big his little eyes squint and all you can see is his gummy mouth.
After he smiles his big fat smile, he starts babbling like crazy high pitch squeaky sounds, with cracks grunts and any other adorable sounds ever heard.
He has started reaching for me!! Sometimes when someone else is holding him, and he wants mommy back, he will reach his little arms out for me :( SO CUTE!!
He kicks his feet to music and "sings" along.
He is almost 12 lbs now!!!!!!!!!!! In a few days he will be 8 weeks so, within 8 weeks, he has gained about 4 lbs! HOLY COW!!!
He has amazinf eye contact and sometimes even laughs a little.
BEST OF ALL.... He is sleeping at night!!! actually he has been ever since we came home from the hospital, i dont know what changed, but ever since we came back he has been sleeping from midnight to about 9:30 am with about 2 or 3 eating breaks ofcourse!! I've been so happy! hahaha it's trully wonderful.
He is doing well with his medicine. It gives him a tummy ache and gas, so my PED said I could give him a little yogurt as a probiotic. There aren't any over the counter, or prescription probiotics for his age group. I take his temp everyday to monitor him and make sure it doesn't rise and he doesn't get another infection without me knowing. I got an AWESOME thermometer that every mommy should have. It's brand is Exergen, the hospital brand, and it's a digital infered thermometer that scans across the forehead and gives you immediate results. I can even take his temp while he is sleeping!!! If you've ever had a sick chlid, you know how much it sucks to stick that stupid thing under their armpit and wait forever for results. This thing is AWESOME, and you can find it just about anywhere, i got mine at Costco in the pharmacy section for about 26.00.
In other news my husband and my 5 YEAR ANNIVERSARY is coming up!!! 5 years!! I cannot believe it! Still not sure what we are going to do yet, or how it's going to work with an infant, but i'm sure whatever we do will be fun :)
We are so blessed and thankful for all God has blessed us with. Our life trully is full of blessings right now.
Here are some current pics of my little man.

we are home!

okay, actually we got home wednesday. they let us go early sine Ronan was otherwise healthy. ever since i have pretty much just been recouperating. Ronan had to finish his last four doses of antibiotic via intramuscular shots in order for us to leave the hospital. also, please pardon my grammar, i'm typing with only one hand.
The shots are finally over. Poor Ronan had some sore legs and an upset tummy. He was diagnosed with grade 3 reflux in his left kidney. the doctor told us that a lot of times cases like his "right themselves" by age 2. so until then he will recieve daily antibiotics, a very small dose, that will hopfully prevent any future infetions from happening by keeping his urine steril until it hopefully rights it's self. If it doesn't, or he continually gets infections, he will need surgery. I am hopeful it will not come to that.

Other than that, we are doing well at home. He is sleeping well at night, yay. He has just been a little more fussy because of the meds, which will hopefully be out of his system soon.
We are just busy busy busy, but will hopfully find our way back to some sort of routine... the hospital stay pretty much destroyed any routine we DID have.
I will try to get more pics up soon.

Thanks to everyone who prayed for us during our hospital stay! We are SO glad to be home!!!!!

day 3 in the hospital

We are doing alot better lately since we started getting good news and have more answers!! Ronan's ultrasound showed healthy kidneys and bladder, no inflamation or anything showing reason for concern. His blood culture also came back negative, so that keeps us at 10 days, thankgoodness!!!!!!
I have also had the sweetest nurses who have and are doing their best to make our room a home away from home. They frequently pop in to see Ronan and love on him since he is so stinking cute :) everyone says that we are their favorite patients hehe. I am deffiatly feeling less lonely than i'd thought. Brian also brought my wii and the wii fit so the nurses are bringing me a yoga mat to work out on haha.
Not much else to report. Today another nurse who teaches infant massage therapy came in to teach me some exercises for Ronan, so that was fun. Grandma also came to visit and read him some stories (i read to him every night, he loves it!)
I will include some pictures of his hospital stay so far.

Thank you all for prayers. The Lord heard us and have provided excellent care here at the hospital and healing for my sweet little boy!!
Love to all of you!