Not what I expected.....

Brian and I were all giggles and full of excitement when we checked it....

When we were finally taken back we were told the news we hadn't prepared ourselves for.

"One survived, but the other didn't..."

I was completely shocked.... How??!! They looked so perfect before, perfect they said.

It happens 5% of the time.... Lucky me.

It felt like my miscarriage with Adriel all over again.

I immediately began sobbing. It just killed me.

They gave me a Valium which helped a little, but the searing pain left me feeling hopeless. They said the other embryo looked good to fair- a real confidence booster. It started as a 4aa and was now a 3AB. The RE assured me that with my history of carrying babies, if it is a healthy embryo we will get pregnant without a hitch, but if it has any anomalies it will arrest.

I'm having a hard time processing this information since just a few hours ago I was hoping for twins again.

I also know that this is God's will. I am shocked and saddened by it, but He is the creator of the universe. I do not question His plan.

For now I am grieving my lost one, and praying with everything inside that this little bud of life will continue to grow.

Please pray for us as we navigate through this transition. Pray that God will be glorified in any out come. That my heart will be content in HIM.