IVF testing... check!

I feel like I am on a crazy emotional roller coaster... Let me start by saying all I've eaten is a whimpy egg salad sandwhich. For some reason, with my brain on over drive like this, and all the blood I have given, and information I have received I feel as though i can hardly stand, let alone feed myself and my family...

This is OVERWHELMING.

Let me start with the day. I first had the doppler scan. The blood flow to my uterus looked great. Something about wanting it to be under "3" (whatever that means) and he kept saying numbers averaging in the 1.5's. So that was a GOOD thing.

My mock transfer also went well. He said the cathader went in with ease, no resistance, and placement was great. This was also a GOOD thing.

Next we went back to his office to talk about risks, and the over all process. Risks were all very minimal and the talk was very light, fun, and pleasant.
He started talking about all the new advancement in the biopsy testing aspect of the embryos- which I could tell, he was excited about. For us however, it wasn't anything we are interested in. I explained that it wouldn't matter how any tests came back, and that for us, we choose ALL our fertilized embryos. Even if there may potentially be a child with down syndrome, or any other chromosomal defect. It's not like that is what we would CHOOSE for them, but we believe all life is valuable and has a shot at life in the womb.
He also mentioned that we could get started ASAP even though we are still waiting for Brian's bonus check. So now I am getting super excited- despite the weird sci fy chat lol.

Next we talk to the financial people who inform us that it's in their notes that our insurance is covering our fresh and frozen cycle... what?
NOPE just kidding, there is a new girl and she messed up on the docs... "OH and instead of using the overseas meds you will have to use ours, which is 3K more than you planned..." Okay, she didnt say it like THAT... but once we got all the money stuff in order, she sent us off to the nurse/ coordinator who would talk timing and answer all our questions.
Our Nurse explained that part of ORM's excellent rates are because their meds and protocals... incase I haven't mentioned it before ORM has the high IVF rates in the nation for women under 35 at 72.5. Half of those pregnancies resulting in twins.
So, yeah, i got it. But 4k? She then explained for ME it would be much less because I require less to stimulate. Since I am young with PCOS it should be way less.
They also said that there is some follistim that has been donated that I could have. She wrote up a script of EVERYTHING I would need, from antibiotics, to lupron, to progesterone, menopur, follistim and anything else I might be forgetting. The total came to about 1500. Okay, big sigh. Not nearly as bad as 4,000, and closer to what we would've paid anyway.

Then we start discussing the plan. For some reason I thought I could start the birthcontrol at any time and just hop right to it. Nope, I have to wait until my cycle starts ( probably Sept. 23rd) THEN comes the b/c, then the Lupron, then the stims around Oct 20th (Brian's b-day) with an estimated retreival of November 2nd, and Baby transfer Nov. 7th.
I will be honest, when I heard "November" my heart sunk a little. I was really hoping for it to all happen October. I KNOW it's only a difference of about 3 weeks, but it just feels so far away.

God has this ALL completely under control though. HE knows the best timing, He will take care of everything. I just have to keep reminding myself that...
There really is no point to worry, it will change nothing. I just need to get my head to stop spinning, eat some freaking food, and trust that this will all work out for God's glory.

So there ya have it! I am now just waiting for my period to come... Until then, I am going to enjoy being mama to my sweet boy, and wife to my awesome hubby!